Waiting to feel like I’m enough

I skipped from accomplishment to accomplishment.

From degree to degree.

Waiting to feel ready. Waiting to feel like I was enough.

I embraced every challenge and obstacle that came my way, like another notch on my belt.

I fell asleep every night dreading the idea of having to do it all again, but deciding that if it didn’t kill me, it would obviously make me stronger.

I was exhausted. Burnt out. Tried of all the things.

When would I be done? When could I be allowed to put my feet up and rest?!

It was until I saw how this way of being was negatively impacting my children that I became aware of the crazy train I was boarding each day.

Thank God for my children.

In that moment of clarity, when my son said, “No one loves me, I should just disappear”, I knew this way of life wasn’t working any more. I couldn’t keep up at this dizzying speed. So, I slowed life down.

I ditched the huge list of to-dos and created space. Space for me. Space to be. Space to be present with my kids and husband. Space to actually enjoy each day.

I reconnected to myself and my essence.

It wasn’t instant. It took time, but I embraced and allowed myself to feel and heal with no time restrictions.

And any time, I catch myself about to board the crazy train, I stop. Drop. And Bliss my way back to my home frequency. Back to where I can be all of me with no restrictions, no fear, no force, just me and my essence. And from there, I easily create the life and business I desire.