Who is it all for?

Who is it all for?

I asked myself as I struggled to muster the energy to get out of bed again.

I was exhausted, discouraged, and frustrated.

Nothing I did seemed to matter and nothing seemed to be working in my favor.

The truth was, I was doing it all for others. I was doing it for my husband, my kids, my family, my friends and it didn’t feel like an equal exchange. In fact, I often felt utterly exhausted at giving again.

But what was the alternative?

Isn’t this what I am supposed to do as a mom? Wife? Woman?

Actually NO.

I was giving and waiting for someone else to validate me. Someone else to fill my cup and tell me I was enough. Someone to live me unconditionally.

And what I needed could never come from outside of me…

The love I so craved can only be filled from within.

So I began to do it all for me first. For my God given purpose.

And then, and only then, did the constant frustration and anxiety disperse. It was only when I learned to love myself unconditionally, that I was able to truly give from a filled cup.

So, who’s it all for??